Horror on campus
It’s a black Monday. The day started as usual for me until the noon when my father called me from India and asked if I and my husband are ok. He kept a message that some shooting happened in Virginia University today morning and he just wanted to know if we are safe. Then I read the news about Virginia tech shooting and shocked. I called him immediately to tell that our university is different from Virginia tech and not to worry, we are safe. Then many friends and relatives sent mails, some called. After first wave of surprise subsided, I started to think that what really would have happened if we would have been in Blacksburg instead of Charlottesville. It was a close call. I thanked god from my heart.
When I think about those 32 victims who died in this massacre, I feel very upset. What did they do? They might have studied hard to get into the college. Some of them might be international students who dared to dream an American dream for bright future. They all must have tried hard to get admission. They might have left their loved ones for promising future. After studying hard whole year, they might be desperately waiting for summer, to have some fun and relaxation from studies. Guess what they got? DEATH.
Is life really useless? Is it really cheap? Why this happened? The gunman is dead. It is not clear yet why did he take this action, but any reason under the sun will be convincing enough to take 32 lives? If somebody wants to kill himself, he should do that. Why
Do they want to take others with them? Why the killer did not choose to vent his frustration by some other way? Why he did not get psychological help? But at the end, I wonder if these things would have changed the course of his actions. What if firearm purchase by young
I feel deeply sorry for the friends and families of victims. The shock, the pain , the sorrow and the emptiness in their lives is can not be replaced by anything on the earth.
GRE
GRE was the most terrifying thing for me before three days. I can not tell how many times I decided to take the date for the test and again postponed due to some kind of fear or lack of confidance. But somehow at last I did it.
I have been very impressed by some guys to whom I know from Yahoo GRE group. I always wanted to score like them. You can say I was secret admirer of their achievment in GRE.
I want to thank them in this post. Sudipta and Sunshine both posted nice and useful tricks for GRE and TOEFL. It helped alot.
I got 590 in verbal and 780 in Quantitative. It is pretty much good score for me. It may seem ridiculous but I was so frustreted after the test that I wanted to cancel my scores. Now I thank to the God that I did not go for it. I learnd the most important thing that more than your preparation, the GRE tests your composure. Offcourse, there is no alternative to hard work and preparation but though you are well prepared, fear of test might affect the scores.
Well, GRE is not the only thing for admission process. Now I have to make my SOP and RECOs. Lets see how it goes.
Relationship
I don’t think that marriage is the responsibility only one should carry. I think clashes start when ego intrudes in the conjugal bliss. Before marriage the world is pinkish. We dream about the life- partner and we enjoy the life according to our way. There is not much control on our activities (of course- parents and value system is always there to guide), but they are adjustable. When marriage is fixed no matter if it is arranged or love- marriage, every one decides to live ideally. Normal couple decides to love and care and cherish each other. To give each other whatever they can. To avoid fights and blah blah blah-----.
This ideality ends after the novelty of marriage feds away. Adjustment becomes the most popular word in the couple’s dictionary and ego second most. Real thing is there is no limit to adjustment and no couple are blessed with the extra- ordinary compatibility. Marriages might be decided in heaven but we are those who decide its fate. Before marriage I always wondered about the quarrels between couples around me. I always thought that those reasons were so trifle to fight over and why these people are making such big issue of it. Now as a married person I can tell that why those trifle issues were triggering factors to cause skirmishes. According to my theory, every time you adjust with the things which you hated most , some part of your soul cries for help, it gets hurt badly and these constant adjustments by only one partner makes him or her unhappy and irritated. Obviously it affects other’s lives as well. If one is dependent on other (wife is housewife) then it becomes worse. In this case decision maker is always the husband and wife is not even respected because she does not earn. Though she manages all expenses tactfully and saves money, she is always considered minor in family hierarchy. Lack of respect leads to lack of satisfaction and again gives feed-back for more depression and fights.
People use cliché that you can not clap with one hand (means no fight takes place only because of one’s fault.). I think no marriage is an ideal marriage. Every-one has to work it out. It takes efforts and patience. Sometimes it is bearable sometimes not and when it crosses the limit of patience of either partner’s patience, it breaks. I can imagine how painful it would be but it is always good to endure all the pain once and get on with life than cry and suffer every moment.
Movie-Mania
What is the importance of movies in our life? Why we like to watch the movies? I think they provide some moments of respite in our banal life. They show dreams and struggle to achieve them. We enjoy them voraciously. Unless who fights with herd of impugns and wins it easily? Who travels abroad without earning a penny and who transcends all human limits?
All protagonists in our movies are blessed with supernatural powers. All events happen accordingly to them. Even Gods too biased on their sides. They won’t die even if they get shop by many bullets till they ask their family members to take care of themselves and talk for ten fifteen minutes consciously. However how ridiculous it seems we still watch them because no other medium of entertainment is as effective as it is. It makes us to forget all our worries and boredom.
It is very unusual for Hindi movies to handle subjects other than love and marriage issues. On the other hand, in other languages there is astonishing variety of themes. Just for example, Forrest Gump of Tom Hanks, it shows entire lifetime of one generation in USA. October Sky is the inspiring story of one boy motivated to make projectiles and his struggle to study the subject he and his friends interested in. Sheepshank Redemption is the story of one inmate whose genuine efforts and intelligence shows him the light of freedom. All these movies give only one message hope never dies.
Some critics may argue about the role of movies in education and entertainment as well. It is true that violence and vulgarity in movies in increased exponentially and teenagers are emulating the actions in the movies to experience the thrill. On other side movie-makers claim that they picturise the current situation in the society. It is like the question who is the first – egg or hen? It is an inscrutable dilemma. Current news that some children got injured when they were trying the stunts performed by Hritik Roshan in Krish is disturbing. It revived the memories when many couples ended their lives to secure their love from society after watching “Ek Duje Ke Liye”.
I hope our future generations will differentiate between the dreams and reality. They will learn some things from foreign movies and cherish the invaluable life they deserve.
blog-friends
i have been through other's blogs almost regularly. As compared to other's i think my writing is somewhat insipid. I wrote only two little posts not because i did not have time but my enthusiasm decreases when i read other's posts. They are really very terse and cogent. While reading i feel that i am in their shoes. I enjoy many things voraciously through their eyes. I never talked with them personally and i do not even know much about them still i think they are my good friends. i know how they live how they think and feel about the same surrounding in which i grew. I sometimes turn green on their enjoyment and success. But from within my heart i care for them and thank them for being such nice friends.
Emptiness
Hi friends,
Have you ever been in the stage of emptiness? Whole life seems the failure and all people around you seem more lucky than you? All the dreams look mirage and all the efforts worthless?
Well, I am in a blue in these days. Kinda lost the aim of life.
Actually it is a very long long story . In short, I am unable to study or work in the field I want. As a married woman I am living the life of housewife which I hated most. Now this will help you to understand my pschological condition.
My concept of rest when I was busy in my job was to read books , watch tv and surf on net. Now I am so bored with these things that I want to work for 24 hours and seven days in week. I am pretty sure I will really enjoy it. I want tension. I want deadlines. I want team-work. I want challenges. Basically I want group of people around me.
That is why I started volunteering in hospital. Let see how it works.
Test
Hi friends,
Today I want to share my experience with you . This incident taught me many things. I would like to call it near death experience. But it depends. Other people can call it as act of stupidity.
Actually it happened like this. In last year, when I was working in the hospital, I accidentally got pricked by the needle of the patient. That patient was fortunately not infectitious so I did not care much. Now after some months, in these days I became so nervous thinking that I should have tested myself for the HIV. I suffered by depression in the extent that I lost my night sleep and the seven days for waiting the results meant like seven years to me. I can not write what kind of thoughs occupied me in these days. I felt isolated and alone. I even assumed my sucide also.
But the good news is today I received my result and it is negative.
I know that I am the kind of person who is very vulnerable to any kinds of worries. I lost my regular routine. In these seven days I came to know that how the terminally ill patients live the life full of sufferings.
Now I believe that it really does not matter how long you live. What matters how you lived and helped others to enjoy their lives.
Hope you will agree with me.
First Try
Hi Guys,
This is my first try to write. I want to express myself in such a large community.
Hope it will be the enriching experience.
Bye.
